second day - success

2006-09-26T17:12:29Z

So yesterday it was crap. The starvation was perfect, but all the rest was plain crap.
But the delicious thing about it, is: bad days actually fill me with strenght.

So today I came downstairs, had a cup of coffee with sweetners, started working on my website and the time just passed. I didn't feel hungry AT ALL and that's quite remarkable. It's been ages since I last had this feeling of being so interested in other things that food simply wasn't a priority.

Ok, I've always managed to entertain myself out of the fridge for some good hours - but not two entire days. Not after 1998.

I was planning to have some tuna and tomato for dinner, but I didn't like the fact that I was actually planning to eat. It made me feel like I was consciously planning some sort of "little failure". What the hell? NO. No food for you today, little darling. Just have a big cup of coke light lemon with ice cubes and go to bed dreaming that tomorrow you'll be even lighter.

I feel so happy, so in control. Just two days ago my world was colapsing and now I feel like I can drive my destiny wherever I want. I can be who I want, achieve what I want. That's a fabulous feeling. I suggest to anyone who thinks it's not possible to give it a try. You can. At the end of the first day you'll feel stronger.

Now to celebrate, I will have a long, hot bubble bath, enjoy my yummy moisturizers and little girlie creams and go to bed in my favorite satin blue nightie. I will feel gorgeous because that's exactly what I'll be.

My Goddess:

As for the other journal... Not sure if I'll keep it.
People got me extremely pissed off there, friends have let me down.
I think I've found my perfect hideaway.

______________anna chrysalida

second day - success